heavensent
i hate my new toy! it's a digital camera which doesnt have an LCD screen. i brought it with me last monday to school. in the afternoon, i saw heaven at CASAA and we took a photo together with him holding the camera. we were supposed to take more pictures in gateway but we ended up not going together. so this is our only picture for that day! argh.
no biggie. at least, it's proof that heaven and i were together last monday. hehehe. i miss him now though. =( sigh. however, im still sporting a silly smile on my face. =)
over pizza and cafe mocha
im too tired to type so i will just post some pictures. hehehe. i just got home from shakey's quezon ave, then to tia maria's katipunan and then to starbucks tomas morato. i was just hanging out with friends but they were at different places! i had to drive to three places tonight. hahaha. no biggie. i missed hanging out with them. i got home at around 2 am. hehehe.=) now, im chatting on YM with my friends timothy, jake who happens to be in san diego, USA right now and andrew. hey, jake! dont forget my box of pink stuff, ok? hehehe. and our trip to tagaytay for some bulalo next month. and andrew, i promise to make time this july for you! ehehe.=)
this was taken while i was waiting for my pizza! hehehe. i look so pretty. sigh. i love my pink earrings.=)
while eating my pizza slice, this kid posed with me. hahaha. even little boys couldnt resist my oozing appeal. oops!
this was taken by my friend chris. he is so artsy-fartsy! he wanted a candid shot. thanks for the cafe mocha and the interesting talk we had a while ago in starbucks tomas morato. i missed talking to you, you boy scout! i look forward to our laguna road trip next month. hehehe.=)
dodging a confrontation
i decided to post some pictures from last week, since today is the end of the week and all.=) some proof that i am delighted with the way things are turning out. hahaha.=)
my good friend geeknow took these pictures while i was avoiding the gaze of a guy i dated for like four times. this guy eventually got the nerve to talk to me after fiddling with the door handles of his new silver altis. as you can see, this is in the AS parking lot. geeknow and i were just hanging out and poisoning our lungs with some cigarettes. i was feeling a bit guilty towards this guy since he might be thinking that i just used him. i blew him off for no reason at all during the summer. im so mean! =( anyway, it turned out he wasnt mad at me. we even chatted for a bit and then he left. he told me to text him when im free and that we should start going out again. hmmm..i told him maybe i will. hahaha. its definitely amazing that he isnt pissed off at me. maybe its because i was looking fresh and gorgeous, as always, that particular morning. hahaha. thank goodness i was born with perfect bone structure. nicked this from zoolander. hahahaha.=)
patterns
i just got home. its almost 4am but i need to post this before i forget everything this day has taught me. i bummed around the house, specifically, inside my room, for practically the whole day. i watched tv for a bit and slept for the whole afternoon till dinner. after dinner, i was texting with my good friend kayem and she was urging me to meet her friend, anton. this guy, according to kayem, is tall, fair-complexioned, cute, comes from a good family and drives a beemer (BMW) and a trooper. plus, he wants to meet me.=) this is funny. typical kayem. everytime she finds out im single, she plays matchmaker and pairs me up with her supposedly "cute" guy friends. anyway, i love her for that, for being concerned enough to think that i should be able to move on as soon as possible. love ya, kayem! =) anyway, from all the guys she has paired me up with, this anton seems interesting. the best part about him is that he's from UP. finally, a UP guy who has no complications and who has the best schedule in the world, like me. hehehe.
anton and i are, if im free enough to meet him, meeting on monday. since its technically sunday now, tomorrow! this is kind of freaky since i feel like im going on a blind date. but since kayem will be with us, its ok. i trust kayem's taste. hehehe. after all, it has been proven that we have the same taste in guys. hahaha.=) im keeping my fingers crossed though that anton is not a freaky, long-haired geek. and please, let him know how to use edison's wonderful invention, the telephone! =) again, i am so excited.
after texting with kayem, i took a shower and then watched the three ninjas kick back movie on AXN. after the movie, i read my favorite harold robbins book, the pirate, for a bit. i fell asleep after a few minutes, i didnt know i was that sleepy. hehehe. i had the weirdest dream. i dreamt that i was walking around this huge building and i was alone. the wind was cold in my face and i couldnt find anyone. i woke up in a jolt and i felt scared. i was alone in my room. my cousin went out so i couldnt instantly tell her about my dream. i needed someone to talk to, someone who knows me really well. and if possible, someone who knows me since childhood and who lives within close proximity. then, it hit me. my ex-boyfriend, bren, fits the description. heck, he knows me very well and can psychoanalyze me in a flash. plus, bren is very smart, smarter than me even. thats what made me fall for him in the first place before. i was primarily attracted to his brain. not that he isnt cute, given the time, he could even give luis manzano a run for his money and popularity. most importantly, he has the most brilliant answers for even the stupidest questions. im pretty sure that he can enlighten me about anything. we've known each other since the sixth grade! if theres anyone who can give me a hug and some words that are going to assure me that everything is going to alright, its him, brennie. hehehe. pardon the pet name.=)
i texted him immediately, having etched his numbers on my brain. naturally, he instantly replied. good, old dependable bren. he will always be there for me, no matter what. he was out on a gimik on some bar in katipunan because the alternative band he was managing is performing there. even if his presence is important at the gig, he left the gig and went straight to my house, in 10minutes! the moment he came inside my room, he hugged me tight and said that everything will be ok. even if i didnt know why, i burst into tears and embraced him back. after a few minutes, i calmed down and we talked about some stuff and watched some tv. his presence was comforting. i was amazed how easy it is for us to be really, just friends and see nothing wrong with affection for each other and the fact that we were alone. bren is really special. many years from now, i know he will still be a friend to me, someone who will wake up in the middle of the night just to tell me that i will be ok. with all the boyfriends (sorry, i lost count!) that i had, bren is the only one i am comfortable having as a friend with. this is freaky since he has been my boyfriend for exactly three times. things have their way of bringing us together but im glad to say that we are just really close friends now. besides, its nice that he lives only a block away from me. every time i needed help with news writing, he's just 200 steps away.=)
after some much needed pep talk with the brainy brennie, we decided to go out and have some fun. he said i shouldnt be wasting my time being holed up inside my room on a saturday night. i got dressed and we went to danny's grill in timog first. we drank some beers and then ate some shawarmas at behrouz. and i also had an apple-flavored shake! hahaha. thanks, brennie. i was already feeling sleepy so he took me home and now, i am posting this entry.
the best thing that brennie said to me tonight is the fact that some people live in patterns, in routines. well, he told me i shouldnt be feeling lonely that i lost my pattern. i am just 20 and basing it on the fact that the normal life span for a human being is 74 years, i still have 54 years to look for other patterns that will suit me and make me happy. this makes perfect sense. i am now officially on a new pattern. however, i am envious of the way brennie lives. he lives in chaos and spontaneity. hmmm..that isnt so bad. maybe before settling on a new pattern, ill try his way first. who knows? i may end up having more fun. fun like the fun i had last night. hahaha.=)
the sun will rise soon and i am now so sleepy. later, i have some plans meeting someone i havent talked to for the longest time. however, i am psyched. i might as well get some sleep. see y'all tomorrow. ciao!
resurrection
i have been planning to resurrect this blog for the past few days but its only now that i found the time to do so. i have been sooooo busy lately. its a good thing i found some time tonight to bum around while waiting for some friends to come over. =)
what have i been doing? well, let me give you guys a recap of my week's activities. hehehe.
TUESDAY (June 21, 2005) This night is the masscomm freshies' welcome party. this started around 6pm where some orgs presented some avps and the band, giniling festival, performed. however, the party was cut short because of a heavy downpour of rain! anyway, no biggie, it will be rescheduled next week. it's a good thing giniling festival performed first. at least, the night wasn't a big loss, for some people, i mean. hehehe. since it was raining hard, i hung out at masscomm with my blockmates, orgmates and then with josa, mayleen of rubber pool combo, klara and jeje and lec from giniling festival. i arrived at my house at around 11pm and i instantly fell asleep.
WEDNESDAY (June 22, 2005) I spent the night texting with heaven, hmm..the day in fact. after my geography class where someone snatched the seat next to my crush away from me, i was feeling depressed since this cute geography major and i didnt get to bond again like last meeting. my depression was lifted when emman, liezl and i had lunch at the beach house canteen. we had barbeque, tomatoes and red eggs! yum! i went with emman to his sociology class and then went home. this is practically the happiest day of the week for me since heaven asked if we could have dinner the following night. hehehe. i missed him, yes.=) of course, i said yes! i was so excited. i havent seen heaven for the longest time and i really missed him. teehee. now, im blushing. enough information! =)
THURSDAY (June 23, 2005) I went to class, hung out with gino and emman at music box where i had an apple-banana shake and then went home to get ready for dinner with heaven. it was raining hard but heck, i didnt care. frankly, my friends, i dont give a damn whether it was raining or not. hehehe. nicked that from gone with the wind. we met and then had dinner at napoli's. hehehe. my choice. i had so much fun. he's still corny but then again, i still laugh at his jokes. cant help it, he is so cute.=) hehehe.
FRIDAY (June 24, 2005) I hung out in masscomm after class with shayne, adan, mich and emman. i went home at around 6:30 pm. i slept for a while because i was so tired and then watched some tv. around 11:30 pm, a friend came over. this friend shall be anonymous. hehehe. sneaky, sneaky. we watched some tv and talked about music and some people. fooled around my house for a bit then he went home around 4:10 am. hahaha. this guy is just a FRIEND. no hanky-panky. NOT! i'm contradicting myself. i might as well shut up before i say something. hahaha.=)
