meteor shower
after a hiatus from blogging, here i am again. things have been so hectic and exciting lately that i failed to find the time to sit down in front of my laptop and blog. anyhow, this is not a bad thing since the past few days have been marvelous. like james in the book, "james and the giant peach," which i have read recently for creative writing class, marvelous things are happening to me and it appears that i will not be finding reasons to be miserable as days pass by. despite the loss of my bag last week with my wallet and newly-bought mobile phone, i am not miserable. again, i stress, life for me has been perfect.
there is going to be a meteor shower on december 13, which is two days away from my birthday. even if i feel that i cant ask for anything else in this world, i plan to be a spectator of the night sky on this date. i also plan to bring someone special to share this wonderful moment with. i might just prepare a list of my wishes and wish the night away. at the top of my list is to cast the wish that all of my loved ones be happy, regardless of whether they are with me or not, to the night sky. very unselfish, i know, and so unlike me. but since my 21st birthday is approaching, i feel that i must do something mature for a change. after all, nothing pleases me more than seeing the people that i love happy, even if their happiness doesnt lie in my hands.
at the end of this meteor shower, i feel that my last wish is particularly for someone really special. how can he fall? when i just won't give him reasons? well, i am wishing that he finds peace and the awakening on what he really wants and who he should believe. i am not rushing anymore nor am i expecting anything. i am in full equilibrium and i am not bothered anymore by his failure to trust me once again and his hidden angst over my past actions. i have explained myself and even turned the conversation into a sobfest. i have apologized. and now, apparently, i have accepted the consequences of my past actions. yes, i know, he feels cheated. he feels played. but these were never my intentions. i was impulsive, i remember. but he should realize now that things can change and that things are finally changing. i am a different person now. in the end, i leave everything to him. if its him im bound to be with, then its him. if he's not, then it really wasnt meant to be. i am now as steady as ever. i have finally attained clarity.
very meteor garden, i know. but then again, it doesnt hurt to believe in mystical things. especially after he stresses the importance of destiny to him. i will be making wishes and the last one will be for him. ironically, not for him to be mine. but for him to attain the clarity i have attained because of the past few weeks. i breathe freely now knowing that i now know the answers to my questions.
there will be another meteor shower next year, january 4. i am wishing on the 13th of december that things will get better and that i dont need to wish for the same things anymore. but then again, some wishes dont come true. im crossing my fingers though.
because after all, marvelous things are happening and they are bound to continue. in retrospect, i thank my lucky stars for enabling me to experience a fabulous life. may your wonders never cease. =)
posted by the gorgeous one @ 7:39 PM
