lone traveller
tomorrow night, i'll be travelling alone by bus to tuguegarao and staying there till monday night. pfft. it's not like i dislike travelling alone but sitting on a bus for eight to nine hours with nothing to do but sleep is really not my cup of tea. i can't sleep well while sitting down but i have no choice. since i have nobody to talk to during the trip, i'm doomed to staring at the window and watching whatever action film the bus conductor feels like watching. argh. not to mention how sore my behind will be from sitting down too long.
ok, ok. so i'm ranting. really ranting. it's been months since i have last gone back there and though i'm a bit irritated, i will just keep reminding myself that i will get to see my old friends and open a time deposit account at my lola's bank. i need to go, badly. besides, i'm thinking of coaxing my mom that we go to sta. ana and visit this really gorgeous, white beach and isolated island! i'm crossing my fingers though that it doesn't rain.
i'm a bit sad though that irving can't come with me, being that he has review classes for the weekend. my mom asked me to bring him along but we both agreed that he'll prioritize reviewing for now. so there, i'll be boyfriend-less for two freakin' days! well, even lovers need a holiday, faraway from each other... hahahaha. =p
roommates no more
my cousin, bappy, and i became roommates three years ago when she started college in quezon city. since i had the biggest room, she moved into mine and we had twin beds, like jessica and elizabeth in sweet valley. hehehe. we shared a TV set and she borrowed my stuff all the time! like my shower gel, lotion, laptop, books, etc. the set-up was great though since i love my cousin to smithereens and i was a BIT scared of sleeping alone in a room. i also enjoy watching TV with her and talking until our throats hurt. with her as my roommate, i was never lonely. except of course, when she is out on her frequent birthday parties. nyahaha.
yesterday, though, i moved to the guest room with all my stuff. my mom bought me a new airconditioner and i'm buying myself a new, flat-screen TV next week. vanessa, our other cousin, who is going to start home school by angelicum college, will now be sharing the room with her.
well, though i was enjoying the previous set-up for almost three years, i started yearning for more privacy. my cousin always has her squealing girlfriends over and i can't rest well with all their bickering. plus, her boyfriend is there almost everyday. when i get home, they are all lovey-dovey in our room so instead of hanging out in my bed, i go downstairs and watch tv. hey, i know they need privacy as well so i'd rather leave them alone than have them make out in my presence. hahaha. also, my cousin surfs the net or studies up to the wee hours of the morning with the lights on, of course! result? i can't sleep well. thus, i decided to tell my mom i have got to move to a room in the house all by myself.
next year though, i finally have my mom's permission to move out of the house and live on my own. nooooooo!!!! though i have been pestering her with it for the past four years, i have a feeling i'm not going to enjoy it. hahaha. =p
yes, yes. it's because i am the perennial lazybones. =)
first
at max's restaurant, quezon ave. cheers to their bottomless sago't gulaman! hehe.
yesterday was our first monthsary and it was great, superb, magical, wonderful...hmm, i can't seem to find the right word. let me just say that i am extremely happy. one month has passed since that fateful early morning where my bestfriend chided us to be the newest couple on the block. one month of love and friendship and one month of not staying out late on gimiks but just going out or staying home with him. my mom gave us this gift certificate to max's so we had dinner at max's, quezon ave. we got home around 10pm where we hung around my house for a while. sigh, i really can't believe my luck. i have the best boyfriend ever!
cheers to more months together! =)
reunion
caroline and i met up at up yesterday and we went to meatshop (where else?) after. naturally, we ended up yakking and gossiping about the latest news on the people close to us. it was a reunion of sorts because caroline and i haven't gone out by just the the two of us in ages! i miss just talking with her and loafing around just for the heck of it. since i have voluntarily gave up drinking to appease my boyfriend's nerves on the times that we are apart, i just ordered an iced tea! hahaha. my bestfriend, on the other hand, drank beer while we feasted on fish crackers. nya, very shade-ish where we ate fish crackers before all the time! =)
as we got around to talking, we both realized how petty things in the past seem. the issues that have kept us awake to the wee hours of the morning seem so juvenile now. my, we have totally grown up and moved on in such a short span of time. and though i have always had strong conviction in saying i regret nothing, we both found it funny that we regret the same thing. hahaha. it was our major booboo, which goes on to prove that it's not right to patronize things or rather people just because it's convenient to do so.
i was supposed to meet up with her this thursday. but since i missed her so much, i coaxed myself to go to up, brave the rains and succumb to the magnetism my bestfriend casts upon me. it's amazing how we manage to stay close as ever, knowing that our worlds are quite separated now. with this, i look forward to more reunions with her in the months to come where we would yak the whole time or just simply stare at the ceiling while giggling. now, that's what we, ewww brunettes, do best!
it's a great thing my bestfriend now has a phone. =)
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by the way, it's irving's and mine's first monthsary today! weee! oh love. =p
go to church
after months of not going to church (yes, i do go to church), i have finally given in to max's constant persuasion of me attending service with her. i'm not a catholic though and because of max's excellent sales talk in college, i agreed to join her in the victory christian fellowship, the fort.
tomorrow morning, i am attending my weekly yoga class with ieth and then, off to katipunan to meet up with max for service at the fort. see the connection? both are spiritual activities which leads me to the belief that i'm in dire need of spiritual reawakening. i need to focus. i know i have been too occupied with my emotions lately that i need to be centered again.
i am not complaining about the state of my emotions though. i am happy. i just feel that i have been focusing too much on them that i tend to forget that there is a higher power responsible for all the good things happening in my life right now. it's high time that i pay attention to and thank Him for this tres fabulouso life i am living.
my mom would be happier too, knowing that i haven't forgotten God as she keeps on insinuating since the day i survived the car accident. speaking of which, kenji's death anniversary is fast approaching. on july 16, a year has passed with me still living. see? i really need to go to church.
special moments
i bought my mom a new cellphone yesterday and when i gave it to her this morning, the look on her face was undescribable. she said, "thank you, arcie. i love you." though i was trying hard to be nonchalant, i couldn't help but smile. i left the house with her tinkering with the new phone and taking photos with the phone's camera. she's like a kid with a new toy. it was definitely an emo moment.
the feeling was great because it was the first time i bought something for my mom that didn't come from my allowance. hehe. =p
speaking of special moments, irving and i had dinner at jack's loft and watched scary movie 4 at eastwood last night. he took a break from studying practically every night so we took advantage of the time. while driving to eastwood, he remarked that even if we have only been together for barely a month, he felt that we have already been together for years. hehe. i agreed. hmm..i feel so close to him already. teehee.
sheesh. i have to stop being so mushy. my knack for being effortlessly nonchalant is waning. hahaha. =)
the haunting
diesel and i were chatting on YM a while ago and though i know it was pretty innocent, i feel a bit guilty now. this is because diesel and i had a thing for almost a year now. we looked and we definitely were good together. he is a total hottie, now that i think about it. my cousin even answers with his name whenever we ask her who is the hottest guy i've dated. and even the picky caroline agrees. ok, ok, he is hot.
the first question he asked me was, "how's your new boyfriend?" i didn't even need to ask him whom he heard the news from because duh, we have the same circle of friends. i answered that he was ok. though we were chatting on YM, i felt a bit uncomfortable because it was a touchy subject between us. diesel and i were together but we were not officially together. he was one of those guys i usually hung out with in college and a bit after my graduation. we had fun, i admit. the great thing was that even if we haven't seen each other for a while, the chemistry was maintained and the moment we see each other again, there was no awkwardness. i promised to treat him out with my first paycheck and now, he's sad that that won't transpire anymore because i have a boyfriend. tsk, tsk. it's like our breaking up conversation. i now feel sad because i know, if i haven't been so nonchalant and insensitive, diesel and i could have been officially together eons ago. there were complications on his part but i knew that diesel would have been a keeper. however, i just liked him a lot, not loved him. but still, he's like a stone unturned, a "what-if?" and God knows how much i hate having "what-ifs?" argh.
now, i'm again chatting with another old flame. now, this was just a guy who occasionally flirted with me last year in college. he's cute and we used to send each other text messages. we were even classmates during a semester. however, he doesn't know that i now have a boyfriend. upon learning that i have a job already, he said, "libre naman dyan!" i told him i'll treat him when i see him. i didn't want to commit or even suggest that we meet up. but, he was the one who initiated us meeting up. he asked me when we would meet and if i still have the same cellphone number he used to text me to.
now, i haven't replied to his questions yet. the ms. goody two shoes in me is telling me to be a loyal girlfriend and tell this guy, whom i shall call toughie, that i already have a boyfriend. but, the mischievous side of me is egging me to flirt with him and consequently, hang out with diesel as well.
argh. why are these old flames haunting me?
homecoming
i'm going home to tuguegarao this weekend up to monday because my lola is opening a time deposit account for me and i have to be there. i'm excited! i'll be seeing erwie, laj, sonar, ronsie and mike, the whole gang! i haven't seen my high school friends in ages which totally makes my weekend trip a homecoming slash reunion with the people that saw me through adolescence.
i'm a bit sad though that irving can't go with me because he has review classes for the whole weekend. but what the heck, i trust him and he trusts me. besides, i'll be here on the 27th already, which happens to be our first monthsary. wee! definitely, it has been a glorious month of love, friendship and of course, the occasional mushy conversations where i blurt out, "habangbuhay kitang mamahalin, hun."
shit. i have officially turned into mush. =)
dreamboat
he looks like daniel radcliffe! teehee.
i'm definitely watching philippine idol! he's adorable.
i so envy judy ann santos right now. ryan agoncillo is a total dreamboat! hehehe.
gossip
i was not online for the past couple of days because the internet connection here in the office was going haywire and after work, it's either i eat dinner and go to sleep directly when i go home or i spend some time with my boyfriend. so, i was out of touch with cyberspace till this morning.
to my surprise, or rather shock, caroline flooded me with messages in YM. i think she was expecting me to be online all the time and she was plain bursting with the news. ok, gossip. it turned out that some people were gossiping about us, most particularly about ME. the meat of the gossip was that i was a party girl and that i was playing around with several guys (read: fratmen). ok, so i kind of did that for a bit in college. i got a bit wild. i got crazy. but hey, my senior year was full of emotional trauma and i was going through a phase where i did what i wanted to do and went after what i wanted, regardless of the consequences and what other people might say. and it was fun. i totally regret nothing. i'm not a hypocrite and say that i suffered. every moment was priceless and though i see arched eyebrows and pursed lips, i was never affected.
however, now, i am annoyed at the fact that some people are in shock that i have a boyfriend and that i am committed to him. some were even surprised of the person i fell in love with. they didn't think that i could take anyone seriously and be committed to this person. well, it was no surprise to the people who knew the real me. it just so happens that i tend to categorize people into those i'd eventually get serious with and those i just have plain, harmless fun with.
it's the first time this year that i genuinely felt something for someone and i won't let these gossipmongers ruin it. i simply don't care anymore what they say. i'll let them gossip all they want. this is nothing big, really. not even worthy to be gossiped about. it just so happened that a boy has finally tamed the party girl in me. or rather, accepted and loved that party girl.
though i admit, i'm pretty wholesome now. =)
relaxin'
my boyfriend and i didn't go out this weekend. we pretty much stayed at my place and then at his place. we even had lunch at my house. we had dinner at mister kebab saturday night though because i was seriously craving for keema. hehehe. so, it was pretty much relaxin' the whole weekend. i'm about to go to the gym so i'm ending this post with my favorite picture taken during the weekend. =)
relaxin'. hehe. he is so sweet. =p
a testimonial
Tutti Fruity! Arcie's life is always colorful. She never runs out of things to say. There's always something or someone new. People are always drawn to her energy. Conversing with her will make you see how deep her thoughts and emotions are on a lot of things. She can be a naughty brat sometimes, but aren't we all from time to time? Mana mana lang yan, diba? Like mommy, like baby? At least we know what we want and we get it. hahaha. Seriously, I know that she knows her limits. I also know her heart is resilient. She is never tired of falling in love. She is brave that way. I envy that about her. Some people are too hurt to function. Good thing Arcie ain't one of those folks. Arcie always gives herself a chance to share her beautiful ray of light with the right person at the right time. Teach me your ways, baby. I'm happy you've started another chapter in your life. I hope this will help you bloom more and be more. Altiora peto. Let's go out soon! I miss you!
one of my sorority sisters, pepper, made me this friendster testimonial today. it made me smile and i can feel heat rising up in my cheeks. it's amazing that she sees me this way when it comes to love. for the longest time, i thought i was incapable of loving genuinely and faithfully. well, now, i think i finally am. =)
go forth and multiply!
emman was bugging me about it almost a year ago. almost all of my friends already have one. my cousin has one. so yesterday, i finally created a multiply account. mostly because i was bored though. hehehe. =)
click the link to check it out. i just plan to post photos here though.
gaze at the STARcie in cyberspace
this is wrong while this is so right.
yesterday afternoon, i told my boyfriend, "this is wrong." consequently, he laughed. this is because despite our agreement to cut back on our time together this week to give him more time to review, he still decided to accompany me to the dentist for my braces' checkup and then, we had dinner at tokyo tokyo and then watched the last full show of the omen.
before going to the mall though, we stopped by my house after my dental check-up to get some stuff and for me to change into some comfy shoes. to my surprise, my mom was there so, being the spontaneous couple that we are, i introduced my new boyfriend to my mom. surprisingly, she wasn't distant from him. she liked him, i can tell. even my yaya arlene is not at all snobbish towards him, compared to her cold treatment towards the other guys she has seen me with. sigh. they like him! this made me be in love with him more. hehehe. =)
now, this is so right. though it would be more perfect if time would fast forward and bring me to our wedding date next year! hehehe. =)
yes, we are getting married. though it won't be because i'm pregnant. he said he wants us to enjoy each other first for a bit, experience stuff together, before sharing our lives with a child. sigh. i. am. so. in. love. =p
musings (because i have nothing to do)
this coming thursday, i am meeting with my grepa friends in UP. i'm major excited especially because it's been a long time since we've all seen each other. i am expecting a lot of stories and gossip, most especially now that ewa and i both have boyfriends already! hahaha. i heard ewa is bringing his boyfriend along. well, knowing my boyfriend, he will insist on coming with me so our grepa genmeet is going to be a meeting ala meet the parents. hahaha. aside from my mom, i am concerned over the opinion of my friends on the guy i am in love with so i really, really want them to like him, not that he's not easy to like though. he and caroline are close already and she likes him, a lot.
joe and i plan to stage a catfight to scare ewa out of his wits! hahaha. he doesn't know that we're ok now so i'm also a bit excited about the possible sobfests. we're meeting at oz cafe and then i'm inviting them to dinner at the chocolate kiss cafe. yum. =)
there's one thing at the back of my mind though. i would like to tell someone that love doesn't have to hurt. it just takes the right person, that's all. we should stop begging people to stay and love us. when it's not meant to be, it really isn't. if i was annoyed at this person before for holding on to someone too long, now, all i feel for her is pity. this enlightenment came to me when i was pondering on how lucky i am to have irving. well, not everyone gets lucky at a time. sometimes, we just have to let go. it's also a pity that she's mad at me when i didn't take anything that was hers in the first place.
irving is definitely influencing me to change, to mature. as of this very moment, i don't feel anything negative like angst, irritation, spite or annoyance towards anyone. believe me when i say that the feeling is marvelous. never have i been more at peace with myself and with the world. suddenly, i feel so light-hearted and blessed. =)
beautiful morning
i texted my mom last night, "mommy, i want you to know may bago akong boyfriend. don't worry, di pa ko mag-aasawa. hehe." she didn't reply so i thought she was quite dubious about it. this morning, she arrived from the province. when i went down to have some breakfast, she greeted me with a smile and asked, "o sino naman ang bagong boyfriend mo?" it turned out she was asleep on the ride to manila when i texted last night.
anyway, we chatted for a bit about irving before she left for a case hearing in makati a while ago. she asked me where i met him, what's he like and what does he do now. all in all, it was a pretty good conversation about a boyfriend. my mom's really cool and all but she's kind of choosy when it comes to guys and her approval matters to me a lot. it's good that she likes the picture of irving that i described. hehehe. she said she wants to meet my new boyfriend soon.
anyway, moving on to another topic, i learned a while ago that a couple of bands will be playing during the supreme court's anniversary program this friday, which includes parokya ni edgar! i love this band! i'm super excited to meet and greet the band, being in the public information office of the sc. yey.
this day started out so right. i am definitely loving this morning. plus, i am meeting with the grepapeeps this thursday at UP. wow, this week is going to be a blast. =)
amazing
up to now, i'm still in utter disbelief how i have found the love of my life. i must have done something good in the past which generated this good karma. i love him so much that even if i'm sleeping beside him, i dream about him. i think about him all the time and i miss him already a minute after we part. he is the sweetest boyfriend ever and i am bound to have fun whenever i'm with him. he is amazing. i would kill myself first before i even do something that would hurt him, i would never betray his trust. sometimes, really, you find someone who will make you want to be good. and, i, luckily, found him at the right time.
for the past few days, we have spent all of our free time together. i am a bit sad that we decided to cut back on our time together until his board exam this july 29-30 but i know we have to. he can't focus on reviewing when i'm with him because he spends too much time and attention on me, kissing me, tickling me and whispering mushy stuff into my ear. hehehe. what a sweetie. anyway, we promised to make up for this after his exams. after all, we have all the time in the world to be together anyway. yep, you know, like forever. hehe. and of course, he needs to be in the top ten of the board examinees. i don't want my boyfriend failing because of us spending way too much time together. i can wait. as we agreed, certain sacrifices have to made. i love him and i want him to succeed. after his exams, he said we can do everything we want. yey, we're going to the beach! haha. =p
anyway, here are some pictures we took during the weekend.=)
lunch at shakey's, rob manila. while waiting for the thin-crust pepperoni crunch pizza to arrive! my boyfriend is so hot.=p
with my favorite pair of shades on. during traffic while going to manila, sunday.
now without the shades. hehehe. =p
working early
as of today, i have already been employed for a month. when i told my friends and my family that i was already hired by the SC even before i graduated, they were all shocked because it was well, too early. while the rest of my batchmates planned their summer getaways, i was busy with getting my nbi clearance, drug test, psych test, etc. i also had to start work earlier than most graduates, something that is quite a feat for most people. i didn't have time to bum around like most graduates do after graduation. i considered myself very lucky.
i accepted the option to start working in may because i considered that i would just get bored during the summer, with my bestfriend in summer school and besides, i was energized to start something new and to meet new people. besides, i was ecstatic on experiencing what the real world feels like. i think i have already partied too much during my college years that i don't feel the need to slack around for a bit before i actually get a job.
my decision turned out to be very favorable. i am learning a lot and i am making good use of my time. plus, i am earning my own money now. though there are times that i envy some of my batchmates for fully enjoying the summer by travelling and sleeping the afternoons away, i don't regret starting work so early. the law and journalism are two of my passions and i am learning more about them everyday here at the office. though it's a bit too early to generalize, i am loving my job so far.
and, of course, there are a lot of perks that come with working in the Judiciary. most importantly, if i haven't started at my job this early, i bet i wouldn't have met irving. pardon me for mentioning him in almost all of my entries lately, i can't help it! i am too much in love right now. hehehe. =)
totally lovestruck
yesterday was great. irving and i had lunch at mcdonald's because i was craving for some chicken nuggets, had dinner at meatshop because i simply missed the place and then, he crashed at my place. sigh. here are some pictures we took during the day. =)
feeling wacky. hmm..notice the "love ko" text behind us? totally serendipitous.
i can be as clingy as i want! he's mine. =)
while waiting for the barbeque and the sisig which took eons to arrive. i was actually super hungry when this was taken. =)
baby, you can drive my car
i have never let anyone drive my car for me before, except of course, when i was really drunk and couldn't drive anymore. but on normal circumstances, i wouldn't let anyone put their hands on my precious alecsander's (my vitara) steering wheel and gearshift. i don't trust my baby with anyone. i just have a feeling that it would crank up the moment it realizes it's not me who's driving. it has to be someone i ULTIMATELY trust and have faith in.
this morning, i allowed my boyfriend to drive my car.
carpe diem-ing every second
my boyfriend and i are pretty busy during the week. i've got work and gym and he's got review classes for his board exam this coming july. fortunately, we have unconsciously agreed to be together every chance we get. now, barely a week into the relationship, we spend each other's free time with one another. and on times we are apart, we constantly send each other text messages.
i am a bit worried that he'll get distracted from his review classes but he said he's actually more energetic and inspired to review and be in the top ten of the board examinees. hehehe. sometimes though we both get paranoid when we are apart or when the other's reply is a bit delayed. but, other than that, everything is perfect. every moment is magical. after all, this is the so-called honeymoon period.
we watched the last full show of x-men: the last stand at eastwood last night, got coffee from starbucks and then, crashed at his place. of course, his place is so near the SC so it's convenient for me to just spend the night there. the feeling of him close to me while we were sleeping and then seeing him first thing in the morning is undescribable. now, this is pure bliss. nothing, or rather nobody, can burst my happy bubble. not now, not ever.
oh before i forget, HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY, BLOG! today is the first day of june! wee! =)
