needing retail therapy
law school has officially started and even if i have only endured two days of it, i am experiencing a little bit of stress, the kind of stress that makes me want to drop everything, drive off into the sunset and go to the beach. i miss having lots of free time! i miss watching soap operas on television and eating dinner at home with hunnybun. pfft. plus, i miss doing absolutely nothing! i am so busy lately that i am on the verge of lashing it out on almost everyone. oh no, i certainly do not want to throw bitch fits!
that is why I BADLY NEED TO GO TO SCHU, MANGO, ZARA AND RUSTAN'S TO SHOP. i really, really, really need some retail therapy! that's it, i'm going tomorrow before all hell breaks loose!
P.S. i used to destress by flirting. hahaha. the problem is, there is nobody in my classes i can flirt with! :p oh phooey. peace, hunnybun! :)
Labels: fashion, love, personal thoughts, school
over margaritas and lots of cobwebs
approximately two years ago, i started this blog. on that note, let me greet my blog a happy second anniversary! cartwheels and somersaults all over! weeeee! :) anyhoo, i remember that the first guy i blogged about and was particularly giddy about was a guy that i grew really, really close to over the past two years. yes, we had our ups and downs and even ended up pulling each other's hair and got into the loudest, shouting matches but i consider him now one of the really few people who know me and understand me, even at my most superficial state.
even now, despite my commitment to coupledom bliss, he is still a staple in my life and since my bestfriend is so unreachable lately, he has become my 911 for anything, from the most mundane of dilemmas to the most personal, even love problems! ok, ok, when has he become my dr. love? when he was so complicated when we were "together?" yes, things have turned out to be somewhat ironic but i appreciate the time and the attention he is giving me now. he is one person at this point in my life who would be there for me with just one text message and he would materialize in a flash to wherever i need him to be. and that's the beauty of this irony. when we were romantically linked, he was never there and i could not feel his compassion. but now that we're just friends, i totally feel it and i see how concerned he is for my welfare and happiness. i am happy now that we have reached this kind of relationship. if we couldn't be together, at least, we could be really, good friends.
over margaritas and some reminiscing the other night, i realized that we have gone through a lot. we had fun and we were able to experience a lot of things other random people wouldn't have. he taught me a lot of things and without my relationship with him, i wouldn't have discovered who i really am and what i really want for myself when it comes to love. he made me realize how important one chance is and when you blow it, it would be hard for a partner to trust you once again. i regret my mistakes but i am glad that i made them because without those mistakes, i wouldn't be this happy, contented person now.
while we reminisced the past, it was funny that i could barely remember the things that happened to me before and the wild things i was able to do in front of him. he kept reminding me of people, places and stuff that happened and it was so funny that he remembered them better than me. i saw then that even if he was putting on a nonchalant face before, he was paying attention to me and he was concerned. though i reached out to him that night over a superficial, selfish problem, i was enlightened in a different light. though i saw him all the time as a flaky, indecisive person, i know now that he is a person who will stay, a person who will be with me in the years to come as i make my dreams come true. yes, it's been a long, long time since i blogged about him and i know this would cause some people to raise some eyebrows and even irritate my boyfriend a bit, but what the heck? people like him come only once in a girl's life. he has seen me at my absolute worst but admits that he loves me (not in a romantic way, he says). over margaritas and lots of cobwebs, i learned that i love him too, but NOT in a romantic way as well.
hahahaha. :p
and no, i am not backsliding. :)
Labels: love, personal thoughts
